Complete and utmost happiness!

click photo for original source (Aris Acoba).

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After having to go through application forms with essays, interviews and the painful waiting, THE RESULTS ARE OUT!

I have been accepted into the Humanities AND Political Economy program!

Happiness! Congratulations to me and all other accepted applicants!

Although I got into both, I’m going for Humanities. It has always been my first choice ever since I got the university application form during my senior year in high school. My second choice was initially Integrated Marketing Communications or IMC, for short. But it was just only during this second semester, and a few days shy from the PolEco orientation that I decided to go for Political Economy rather than IMC. I’ve decided Marketing is not for me.

The difference between PolEco and Hum is that PolEco guarantees more career paths. I have thought about entering PolEco, but my heart has always been dedicated to Hum, and I know Hum will be something I will enjoy. There will be A LOT of readings and probably 5 books to read and finish in a week, but I’m still going to enjoy the ride.

I’ll worry about my career soon. I have to graduate first anyway!

I’ll be happy in Hum.
I just know it.

Sometimes, I just want to cut this all off.

Oh, hello.

Wow, long time no blog and to think this is my first post for the year 2010! Ahh, I’ve just been caught up in so many things, different aspects of my life. I really want to talk about them all, but I have no idea where to start.

Hmm.. but I guess something that’s been bothering me since December 30th last year is this issue between me and my high school friends. It still hurts whenever I think about it, when they said I don’t prioritize them more over my college friends, that they felt I just threw our friendship out the window when I got new friends. What the fuck, really. I don’t even know.

This is what I would like to call change. It happens. It will continue happening for the rest of your life and even if you don’t what it to, you have to suck it up, deal with it and move on with your life. For me, I think change could be synonymous to growing up. Or.. something deeper like you’re realizing you are more this kind of person that you thought you were before. No one can stay the same forever, there will be factors and people that can possibly influence the changes in your life. They sometimes can be the change itself.

I’m not saying it’s bad to stay the same way as you are, but there will be small changes in your life. It may be so minute you won’t even notice it right off the bat, but you may notice it at a later date.

Ugh, am I even making any sense? :|

I feel so affected by all of this, making me feel more suspicious, paranoid and insecure. I now can’t help but feel there will be more moments they will talk about me behind my back. Maybe raise a topic that might not even be true on my part. I’m beginning to be more careful with my words (which, I guess, is a good thing), but it leads me to not being able to talk with them freely.

I also realized some people can really be so close-minded. I find it really unfortunate.

I’m having moments wherein I want to continuously stab myself in the ear. Scary, but I got that thought from this Hawthorne Heights song entitled “Where Can I Stab Myself In The Ears?”

My best friend and I used to bond over Hawthorne Heights. I miss you 2006. Ohio Is For Lovers.

I wish things would just go back to normal.

Their absence, this void I feel has been filled with the High Crew & Marc. I’m really grateful for them; they are my silver lining.

Christmas in Cebu.

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I’m finally back in Manila after a week in Cebu! This entry might turn out to be a photo post. More photos than normal, so be prepared!

So I spent Christmas in Cebu with my sister and her husband. It was pretty much a chill and relaxing vacation, spending time with my sister and my adorable nephew, Gavin! Most of the time we were just indoors, eating in restaurants and going to the mall. I did have a small drive to shop, but I couldn’t find anything. All I spent was on Starbucks drinks and food on two separate occasions, hahaha! I guess that’s nice, didn’t do any impulsive shopping. Although I did try on a Leopard print Tunic from Topshop.

I felt funny after trying it on. I liked the print, but I wouldn’t actually wear it on a day to day basis. Maybe if I was feeling creative with my outfit, but that rarely happens, like only if there will be a party or something.

I did have a memory to go along with the fitting of this dress. While I was inside the dressing room, a song was playing and I liked it so much that I wrote down some of the audible lyrics and Googled it when I got back to the hotel. Now I always remember trying this dress on every time I hear Jack Penate‘s “Pull My Heart Away”. :)

Anyway.. I got some nice gifts this Christmas! 

L-R: Owl necklace, owl print pouch, black & white striped ring, Ice Watch and a cupcake pouch.

It’s not a lot, but I still love it! You might have also noticed the owl pattern going on. Currently addicted to owls, so I specifically requested for anything owl on my wish list this Christmas.

Here’s another gift from my dad. I am completely in love with it.

Hailey Crossbody Bag from Coach

The real color and a close-up of the logo.

In the first photo, the bag turned slightly reddish pink due to my external flash’s angle and the dominant pink color in my bathroom. The second photo shows the real color, so it’s deep purple/plum. I’m honestly not a huge fan of Coach, but the style of the bag rules that one out. Can’t wait to rock it out. :)

It’s now midnight. Feeling a bit sleepy earlier but that changed when my dad came home with an Iced Grande Chai Tea Soy Latte! Yay, dad! :D

The drink in Venti size.

Tonight, I got the grande size, but while I was in Cebu, I got the Venti, the biggest size they have. This drink is so addicting. I’ve tried it before, but only using regular milk. Soy milk made it 10 times better. I have to thank a local stylist for this discovery. Hello, Jenni Epperson.

Must sleep in a while. Still have a reunion to go to later tonight! Can’t wait, it’s going to be with my Taiwan tour friends. :)

Later, lovelies!

Frustrating so-called friendship.

Me: There’s something different about you now..

C: What?

Me: Well, maybe something changed between us.. like we don’t really mesh well anymore.

C: I guess something did change.

Me: Do you/we want to do something about it?

C: Of course I do, but not now.

Me: I see, okay.. Let me know when you want to fix it.

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Jesus fucking Christ. I know I told myself I should stop trying to fix everything when they themselves can’t even see that our group is falling apart, but fuck.. I give in too much, and hope too much that they would finally see and actually start DOING something to stop our friendship from deteriorating.

Ending 2009 with a shitty friendship from high school (supposed) friends.

Thanks for nothing.

I am desperately trying to IGNORE this issue.

RIP Brittany Murphy.

“Why should I listen to you anyway? You’re a virgin who can’t drive.”

– Brittany M. as Tai in Clueless (1995)