click photo for original source (Aris Acoba).

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After having to go through application forms with essays, interviews and the painful waiting, THE RESULTS ARE OUT!

I have been accepted into the Humanities AND Political Economy program!

Happiness! Congratulations to me and all other accepted applicants!

Although I got into both, I’m going for Humanities. It has always been my first choice ever since I got the university application form during my senior year in high school. My second choice was initially Integrated Marketing Communications or IMC, for short. But it was just only during this second semester, and a few days shy from the PolEco orientation that I decided to go for Political Economy rather than IMC. I’ve decided Marketing is not for me.

The difference between PolEco and Hum is that PolEco guarantees more career paths. I have thought about entering PolEco, but my heart has always been dedicated to Hum, and I know Hum will be something I will enjoy. There will be A LOT of readings and probably 5 books to read and finish in a week, but I’m still going to enjoy the ride.

I’ll worry about my career soon. I have to graduate first anyway!

I’ll be happy in Hum.
I just know it.

Oh, hello.

Wow, long time no blog and to think this is my first post for the year 2010! Ahh, I’ve just been caught up in so many things, different aspects of my life. I really want to talk about them all, but I have no idea where to start.

Hmm.. but I guess something that’s been bothering me since December 30th last year is this issue between me and my high school friends. It still hurts whenever I think about it, when they said I don’t prioritize them more over my college friends, that they felt I just threw our friendship out the window when I got new friends. What the fuck, really. I don’t even know.

This is what I would like to call change. It happens. It will continue happening for the rest of your life and even if you don’t what it to, you have to suck it up, deal with it and move on with your life. For me, I think change could be synonymous to growing up. Or.. something deeper like you’re realizing you are more this kind of person that you thought you were before. No one can stay the same forever, there will be factors and people that can possibly influence the changes in your life. They sometimes can be the change itself.

I’m not saying it’s bad to stay the same way as you are, but there will be small changes in your life. It may be so minute you won’t even notice it right off the bat, but you may notice it at a later date.

Ugh, am I even making any sense? :|

I feel so affected by all of this, making me feel more suspicious, paranoid and insecure. I now can’t help but feel there will be more moments they will talk about me behind my back. Maybe raise a topic that might not even be true on my part. I’m beginning to be more careful with my words (which, I guess, is a good thing), but it leads me to not being able to talk with them freely.

I also realized some people can really be so close-minded. I find it really unfortunate.

I’m having moments wherein I want to continuously stab myself in the ear. Scary, but I got that thought from this Hawthorne Heights song entitled “Where Can I Stab Myself In The Ears?”

My best friend and I used to bond over Hawthorne Heights. I miss you 2006. Ohio Is For Lovers.

I wish things would just go back to normal.

Their absence, this void I feel has been filled with the High Crew & Marc. I’m really grateful for them; they are my silver lining.

I’m finally back in Manila after a week in Cebu! This entry might turn out to be a photo post. More photos than normal, so be prepared!

So I spent Christmas in Cebu with my sister and her husband. It was pretty much a chill and relaxing vacation, spending time with my sister and my adorable nephew, Gavin! Most of the time we were just indoors, eating in restaurants and going to the mall. I did have a small drive to shop, but I couldn’t find anything. All I spent was on Starbucks drinks and food on two separate occasions, hahaha! I guess that’s nice, didn’t do any impulsive shopping. Although I did try on a Leopard print Tunic from Topshop.

I felt funny after trying it on. I liked the print, but I wouldn’t actually wear it on a day to day basis. Maybe if I was feeling creative with my outfit, but that rarely happens, like only if there will be a party or something.

I did have a memory to go along with the fitting of this dress. While I was inside the dressing room, a song was playing and I liked it so much that I wrote down some of the audible lyrics and Googled it when I got back to the hotel. Now I always remember trying this dress on every time I hear Jack Penate‘s “Pull My Heart Away”. :)

Anyway.. I got some nice gifts this Christmas! 

L-R: Owl necklace, owl print pouch, black & white striped ring, Ice Watch and a cupcake pouch.

It’s not a lot, but I still love it! You might have also noticed the owl pattern going on. Currently addicted to owls, so I specifically requested for anything owl on my wish list this Christmas.

Here’s another gift from my dad. I am completely in love with it.

Hailey Crossbody Bag from Coach

The real color and a close-up of the logo.

In the first photo, the bag turned slightly reddish pink due to my external flash’s angle and the dominant pink color in my bathroom. The second photo shows the real color, so it’s deep purple/plum. I’m honestly not a huge fan of Coach, but the style of the bag rules that one out. Can’t wait to rock it out. :)

It’s now midnight. Feeling a bit sleepy earlier but that changed when my dad came home with an Iced Grande Chai Tea Soy Latte! Yay, dad! :D

The drink in Venti size.

Tonight, I got the grande size, but while I was in Cebu, I got the Venti, the biggest size they have. This drink is so addicting. I’ve tried it before, but only using regular milk. Soy milk made it 10 times better. I have to thank a local stylist for this discovery. Hello, Jenni Epperson.

Must sleep in a while. Still have a reunion to go to later tonight! Can’t wait, it’s going to be with my Taiwan tour friends. :)

Later, lovelies!

C: What?

Me: Well, maybe something changed between us.. like we don’t really mesh well anymore.

C: I guess something did change.

Me: Do you/we want to do something about it?

C: Of course I do, but not now.

Me: I see, okay.. Let me know when you want to fix it.

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Jesus fucking Christ. I know I told myself I should stop trying to fix everything when they themselves can’t even see that our group is falling apart, but fuck.. I give in too much, and hope too much that they would finally see and actually start DOING something to stop our friendship from deteriorating.

Ending 2009 with a shitty friendship from high school (supposed) friends.

Thanks for nothing.

I am desperately trying to IGNORE this issue.

“Why should I listen to you anyway? You’re a virgin who can’t drive.”

– Brittany M. as Tai in Clueless (1995)

Keep Calm and Carry On was used as a motivational poster produced by the British government in 1939 during the beginning of World War II, but never used. It was later rediscovered in 2000. [Wikipedia]

I have seen this poster around the internet a number of times and being a quirky person myself, I always wanted one to put up in my room. Luckily, I was able to drag myself to a Christmas bazaar in Rockwell. My sister and her friend had also set up a booth in the event. While walking around, I spotted a booth selling lomo cameras. I stuck around for a bit until I looked down on what my feet was bumping into. Lo and behold, it was the framed poster!

The version I was kicking at had a blue background and placed in a more detailed frame. I asked if they had a different color (because a sudden blue block of color seems to be too shocking in my pink & white room) and they gave me this gray version with a more linear frame. I didn’t mind.

I paid for it, and then it was finally mine! :D

Yes, it is still wrapped in plastic. I haven’t put it up yet. Maybe I will on New Year’s Eve to act as a reminder for me to keep calm, stay positive and know that life goes on. It has been a sucky year for most people for different reasons. I can’t say that my 2009 has been a total suckfest (because summer was simply amazing <3), but I can’t also say it was perfect. The word “detached” can sum it up. But then I again, everything happens for a reason. Maybe being detached helped me grow up, become independent?

Hmm.. a thought to ponder on.

My friend, Lavina, made a lookbook.nu account and I happily volunteered to be the one photographing her in her chosen outfits. :D Our very first planned shoot did not push through due to my own stupidity: I had all of my equipment, but I forgot to load my camera with a memory card! :| Ughh. So, we planned another one and this time, I made sure I brought everything I needed. I double checked everything.

So here is the product of our labor. :D

Oh, and this also marks my first time use of my 50mm lens! I love it!

Hope you enjoyed them!

In today’s news, here we have another segment of friendshits.

I stumbled upon a blog entry of one of my friends back in high school. The entry was basically stating how she’s so depressed and she misses this guy. Our other friends commented thing such as advice on how to move on; another comment said: “Is this who I think it is?”

What is this? I don’t know anything anymore.

I began thinking, “Did she have a boyfriend? No, she couldn’t have because she would tell me if she did.. right?” Well, I hope she would. Maybe it’s just a friend issue, I don’t know but I would certainly like to know. Our group has not seen each other in like 3-4 months and I feel like it’s definitely putting a strain on our friendship and I’m the only one who can see it.

We all attend different universities (4 of them go to the same one) and that is definitely a factor. We’re all so busy and have lost a bit of contact with each other. But before the new school year started, we would always find time to hang out, maybe once a month or something. This is probably the longest we’ve gone without seeing each other.

Christmas is nearing and it is our tradition to get together around that time, exchanging gifts, staying up all night, cooking our own dinner and taking whacky photos. However, no one seems to be planning anything. I have reminded the 4 people who go to the same university, but nothing seems to be happening. It should be around this time where we’re already pumped up to get together on December.

This is all so frustrating.

I am trying to understand this situation. I have tried to fix this but they all turn a blind eye. I am hoping this will be all resolved soon. I am just very thankful I still have my huge group of college friends surrounding me everyday. It is such a blessing I am very happy to have. College life wouldn’t be the same without them.

I watched (500) Days of Summer yesterday with Marc after much delay. It’s a good thing there was one cinema that was screening it at a convenient time. I enjoyed the movie very much, he only liked the last part though. Anyway..

I could somewhat relate to the movie as it reminded me of my ex and I when we were still together. I mean, we did fall in love but after a while, all we did was fight and we never fully put a close to those fights. We would just wake up the next day and forget that it happened, which I think contributed to our failed relationship.

I believe I’m like Tom Henson (Joseph Gordon-Levitt) in the movie ever since we broke up. Hmm.. maybe a little after a year since we broke up, I was kinda still hung up on him. It would be an on & off situation. Sometimes I don’t think about him or wish that we would get back together, but then out of nowhere, he would cross my mind and I would strongly wish he would reconsider getting back together.

It took me 4 years to get over him. I’ve had my share of crushes, but I always thought that maybe I should just wait for him. I know it’s such a waste of time, but it was a risk. I just got over him this year after I told him I couldn’t get over him. After I said that, it was at that moment I realized I was finally over him. I just needed to let him know that for me to fully get over him.

Irony of life.

Right now, he’s trying to court this girl from his university, but is having a hard time due to the girl’s strict family/cultural traditions. There was a time wherein we ignored each other, but we reconnected and I’m glad to say we remain to be very good friends. Hmm.. best friends maybe? He confides in me with his problems regarding this girl. I give him advice and he listens. And because I care about him so much, I’m very frank with him. One thing I learned from our former relationship is to be open. Communication is key, very essential and that was one thing we lacked when we were still together.

He is very happy for me now after sharing stories with him about Marc. I wish him the same happiness soon, or even better.

He was my (500) Days of Summer (or more like 6 years! 2 years of being together + 4 of not moving on). I met my Autumn, just like in the movie, after going on a cultural tour with 2 of my friends in Taiwan, along with other Chinese-Filipinos. We clicked, instantly developed something and continued this new season ever since May. It is now mid-November and Marc & I couldn’t be any happier. Hopefully we continue to be so through the succeeding days, weeks, months and years.

Hoping for the best, cheers!

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“I guess I just figured, why make something disposable like a building when you can make something that last forever, like a greeting card.”

This will called Music Monday! But today with be an exception and I will put it up a day earlier, haha.

Create a playlist at MixPod.com

Yes, that last song is Korean. My friend Axel showed it to me and it’s a pretty catchy song. Kinda gets me in a happy mood.